Follow up - Never Eat This Soup
I'm just a malfunctioning alien-human hybrid publishing my thoughts and experiences
I'm pleased to announce that I did not eat the can of soup I mentioned in this post. The last two weeks I was down to just oatmeal and spaghetti due to poor planning on my part. The last 3 days I down to butter flavored table syrup and a few bowls of spaghetti with butter, salt, pepper and parsley flakes. In the last 12hr stretch I had a few dollops of sour cream and tea/coffee. I attempted to make something with cornmeal, salt, butter and baking powder, but it didn't pan out.
Instead of sushi I went with pizza. I might get sushi later this evening as an extra treat. Around 4:30 this morning I remembered the aforementioned can of minestrone, as it's usually behind my window curtain on the window sill. I picked it up and wondered about the contents of the can and how they taste in the moment. I had a short lived urge to crack it open, but it fell away quickly. I was surprised at that, as I've developed a bit of binge eating and oral fixation stemming from PTSD, and so I was pretty sure any attempts to not eat it through willpower would prove fruitless, but I was wrong.
I wondered how attached I am to it and came up with some curious answers. If I were incarcerated or institutionalized, I would want it to be part of my lock up. If there was a fire here and lost it to the fire, I would not care. If someone stole the soup, I would be slightly upset... I was just about to say I'd purchase a replacement but then realized that's not right. I have the soup because it somehow survived me not eating it for 3 years when there were times that I should've. Replacing it would do nothing for me. Curiously enough, I worry about it freezing somehow. Freezing to the point where the can cracks open and the contents are exposed. It sounds strange but that would actually be the worst case scenario because then the contents would spoil and I'd have to throw it out, that I feel is a waste. I cannot explain why I feel this way, I just do.